Loving The Both of You

I love you. I love BOTH of you. I don't even know how it's possible nor do I know when it happened. I just know I love you both.

Is it possible that my soul isn't meant for just one? Could I be tied to you both for all eternity? But then that wouldn't be fair to you. I'd get all I wanted while one, if not both of you was left wanting more.

I don't get it. There's nothing I can do to change it. Trust me I've tried. You both know I love you. One of you accepts it, meanwhile the other refuses to believe that it's even possible.

Terrible isn't it. Call me selfish. Call me heartless. Call me a whore. It doesn't matter! All that matters is my heart. It's satisfied...well mostly. That should be the only thing that counts.

Maybe. All I know is I love you both. Completely. Eternally. Undeniably.

Loving Him...

I just want to be close to him at all times. Even when I'm mad..who am I kidding I'm never really mad. It's just that deep. I want him to succeed more than I want myself to succeed. But he reminds me he can't succeed if I don't. I am his & he is mine. In this lifetime and hopefully the next..


- EsDotEm

Let's Not Call It A Comeback

Even if that is exactly what it is. I've been away for far too long. My head is tingling with thoughts so I decided that it's time to let the world back in on my inner workings. Well at least my thoughts on everything I see fit anyway. So whether it be music, love, life, or the latest Catfish episode you can find it here. So brace yourself for what is sure to be K.OS(chaos for those who don't know) mixed every now and then with a sweet melodic sound.

Welcome back to this beautiful K.otic Symphony

An Ode to EsDotEm

A mix in my name who would've thought it? I would have but that's just the way I am. It's from a friend of a friend of mine who is an up and coming DJ in Louisiana. I personally have heard several if not one too many of his mixes and must say that his talent is evident. Take a listen for yourself. If this one in particular isn't your cup of tea trust me you're bound to find yourself bouncing in your seat just by listening to another of his creations. You can find him online everywhere but for his music just go straight to Soundcloud . You'll all be hearing more from this one.

                                     @EstDotem20min HoldOut(Dj CodeRed Exclusive) by Curtis Djcodered Demas on Mixcloud

Ever Faithful

My faith in mankind is ridiculous. I set myself up to fail every time and yet I keep doing the same thing. I must be insane, putting so much of my faith into other people. Maybe one day I'll learn but until that day comes..just call me insane. -esDOTem-

The Weeknd: Echoes Of Silence

-esDOTem-

The Great Debate

I hate all debates. I think they're pointless because everyone has an opinion and everyone wants their opinion to be the right one. The fact of the matter however is that it is just an opinion and it can't change anyone's mind. Unless you're running for public office no one really cares.

-esDOTem-